The First and Last Belief
Monica Khosla
Foreword by Roger Linden
The First and Last Belief offers a lucid and grounded account of what many spiritual traditions have described as liberation or awakening—stripped of mystique, yet retaining its depth. Drawing from her own unexpected and irreversible experience, Monica Khosla explores how the deeply ingrained sense of being a separate “I” might dissolve, revealing life as immediate, unowned, and whole.
Interwoven with personal narrative is a compelling theory that bridges ancient insight with modern neuroscience. Khosla examines how the brain constructs the felt sense of self, and how recent understandings of memory reconsolidation, brain networks, and perceptual processing might explain the sudden disappearance of that sense. Along the way, she unpacks the fears, habits, and emotional learnings that bind us to our most fundamental assumption—the First Belief—and how its dissolution changes nothing in reality, yet transforms everything in experience.
Clear, precise, and deeply human, The First and Last Belief stands apart in its ability to describe both the inner landscape of liberation and the possible neurological underpinnings that make it possible. For readers interested in awakening, consciousness, or the intersection of science and direct experience, it offers not a set of instructions or promises, but an invitation to see what may already be here.
About the Author
Monica Khosla has worked as a somatic psychotherapist for over 20 years and has
a busy practice in South Devon (UK). In 2009 Monica was in an ordinary yoga class when it seemed like her brain was suddenly rebooted leaving her without the sense of being a separate self. She then became interested in the possibility of a modern-day understanding of what had just happened.
She shares her life with her husband, Paul and when not working she can often be found sitting outside cafes with friends.
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$14.95/£11.10 | 5.5" x 8.5" | p.172 | Isbn: 978-1-7385296-7-4 | Published August 2025
